are you still delivering fear
to the front doors of the unbeknownst
who will wake in the sun break
to open their tired eyes
to see their frightened souls
escape from their aching bodies

are your numbers up from last year
have you hit double digits now
do you count those that are close
both in proximity and relation
even the youth are at risk
to being exposed to your toxin

are your payments being made
to keep the lights on at home
where you sit in solitude
staring out the window
wishes the rain would stop

are you going to give up
maybe take up a new profession
that won’t demoralize your soul
but finally grant you admiration
to undo the hurt you’ve cast on us
and finally accept redemption

hold out

i’ve got you down now
back in my old town
there was a saying
that rings true to this day
the farther you are
the harder it is to stay away

but the truth is
i’ve never left here
nights have come and gone
yet all that will remain
is the soul i hold on to
that won’t let me escape

maybe when the sun sets again
i can finally devise a way
to get out of my house
look over the town i’ll betray
under the cover of darkness
wonder if i’ll be missed, regardless

will that day ever come
will the sun ever stop
look forward to something
as it pushes you away
making it easier
to give up and stay


on you and me
our old capacity
for love and hatred
in this society

we used to sit together
on the same old boards
listening to the same old
complaints of consideration

long before my ears bled
from day old lies reread
to the disregarded degenerates
in their horrendous homes

now i’m trying to stick up
for what it is i believe in
whatever it is that i believe in
to get me through the rest of today

not like i had a choice
to keep you here with me
but i’ve heard good things
about your new congregants

at least they seem to be
what they present themselves as
when you wave and say,

divine protector

you’ve done it again
made my mistakes
it’s never as easy
as you make it
when i find myself
in trouble again
will you still be
looking over me
as forgiving as
your soul will
my broken bones always
spread across your
you seem to
have no trouble at all
if i turn away now
who will ever
the road is long
but i am so far from
take me along
without you here
presented here now
before my judgement


she’s gone back in time before
it’s nothing really new at all
snaps her fingers and counts to four
(just an old magical transfer protocol)

she wakes up on the east coast
sand on her bare feet
next to the closest sign post
(pointing where to eat)

she just goes to her ways
forgetting old problems
including yesterday
(and the past autumn’s)

mostly she just stays at the beach
or rides up and down the streets
it’s a fine art you can’t teach
(but it’s easier then constant defeats)

see the weather’s a little better
no wind chill to bring you down
no need to wear a sweater
(unless you decide to go uptown)

she’ll buy high end designer wears
smoke rings around happy hour
but who even really cares
(when you’ve got unlimited power)

when she comes back i hope you see
she’s more dangerous
then you’d think she’d be
(but dont make a big fuss)

her hearts in the right place
i just wish i knew where that was
it’d be easier to embrace
(then just hitting pause)