gospel

if i could hear your words about me
maybe the cracks in my skin would heal
my exposed bones would get wrapped
in the truths you’d reveal

but the lies that i’ve been creating
have kept me awake at night
my mind always keeps rotating
the mistakes about my being right

maybe it’s the gold around your neck
or the emeralds in your eyes
but i take everything you say for granted
but it won’t lead to my demise

but maybe the words you have to tell
will only misconstrue
because the reason that i fell
was making my happiness depend on you

fortitude

will drugs even work
if the love i had for you
was strong enough to hold
through time apart
silent periods
of justified hope
like small holes
at the sides of our hands
escaping inbetween
ignorance and circumstance
the cowardice grows
second judgements
of best guesses
that have no place to run
on rainy nights
with wet hair
unrequited desires
brevity of solitude
keeps my mind on fire
letting lose anger
no trigger friendly smiles
bite through my tongue
the trouble will stop
when i finally expire
giving off the essence
of overexposed photographs
where everyone admires
mispoken truths
that hide behind
mistrusted lust
a brigade of liars

lull

im hitting the bottom
sell baby, sell
rectify my assets
ill look the same
in the morning sun

you couldnt make it
plans already made
just couldnt break em
even on a rainy day
cant waste a parade

hope you look well
hope you get by
hope you make sure
you smile from the sky
as light as can be

i looked for you
called for you
wrote to you
wept for you
ghost of you

conflicting responses

maybe i went into a haze
you know how it goes
i hate to see it go to waste
so i just refill slow

just the times are calling
asking about you
maybe the skies falling
never really true blue

but if i lose myself
who could you blame
i didn’t want your help
it was to hard to explain

just set me aside
it’ll work itself out
i’m fine being left behind
if there was any doubt

let my shadow curse
whatever it touches
just try to nurse
such is

life

cor

after it broke
it seemed pointless
to try to mend
sharp edges
discoloured shards
cut into my fingers

the recess it left
a hollow point
behind a cage
severed lines
dried up
breaking down

no motivation
to regain
old attributes
kind desires
wild ambitions
simple regrets

the flow stopped
frozen over
falling out of place
shatter on command
despair, despair
it cannot be repaired

collect
watch
seek outside
recover
push off sadness
capture the essence

hearts can be strong