if i tried to do something uncharacteristic
don’t stop me, let me try
if i let my greed motivate me to attain
remeber my selfless acts, from before
if i become shallow and vain
look past it, my weak ego
if i treat others unkind
feel foreign, to your own skin
if i strike you with anger
grasp your chest, unbruised
if i disgust you with my language
let my old words, heal your soul
i could be any of these things
but i choose not, for myself (not you)
i stopped caring a long time ago
but you wouldn’t know that, you showed me
i don’t know why i was there
keeping my mouth shut, my hands tied
maybe your lips sealed
while your words, restricted
but that was then
now, you are gone