would i be more like myself
if i knew who that was
not just in automatic
letting life dictate itself
if i took control
set plans in motion
spun the gears by hand
allowed the effort
not to be wasted
troubled minds aside
to be someone
have i grown too comfortable
with the status quo
to even release myself
from the grip of satisfaction
of lower tiers
or out of fear
will i be able to revel
after years of conformity
does my body have the strength
my mind the aptitude
to wake up
does the time have to pass
from days, months, years
for me to see
what the future holds
if i command it
a plan commencing
to be followed through
as i age hourly
this vessel of my soul
eagerly pining
from the loss to gain