Day: 13 June 2017

i’d still be angry with every lie, the shadows cast aside
every argument ending in a tie, any satisfactions denied
long mornings or silence, to evenings of tolerance
the loss of reliance, to no audience
if i took up arms, you’d only cry
there would be no harm, nothing to dignify
but you didn’t learn, you set fire
now it’s my turn, to ruin your desire
you always complained about the past, how you were hurt and distraught
but i was a fool for thinking it would last, getting lost in love’s thought
putting me in your position, how ignorant you are to see
will i ever get an admission, of how you wronged me
has anything truly changed, i’m on the losing side
hearts rearranged, i know i tried
to stop you – from becoming what you despised

it’s the street names that set me off
the memories that are tied to them
if i headed in your direction
if i make the turn, i would break down
my heart would beat strongly
like the first time i met you
my stomach would turn and ache
i wouldn’t be able to stand beside you
anxiety would cut into my soul
so i head straight on
not letting the memories recollect
swirling in my mind
leaving your town
is the only thing that helps
the farther away i am
the calmer my soul becomes
my heart begins to beat again
to a new rhythm
in a new direction
at a new destination
to another