Month: September 2017

i felt it most of the time,
why can you hear it?
i won’t take it for face value,
is that how you perceive it?
i threw out what i had,
does that make you miss it?

i can’t place it – the time it took for you to forget.

i don’t blame you.

it’s a true sentiment.
the lack of it.

just another summer gone.
just another year to learn.

but i don’t blame you.

i’ve got it under control.
i’ll run across you – when i find the time to.

stumble over my words, with fresh eyes.
but those are old wounds, they’ve healed.

in all fairness – i knew it after i stepped back.
i could see you – scared and tired.

soon it’ll just be the distant past.
let’s keep our thoughts in the future.

i miss them
those rare nights
the last one at the fire
whose soul died hours ago
embers glowing slowly
the slight crackle
every now and again
the rustle from the wind
running through the trees
the flutter of bats
soaring the sky
where the moonlight
acts as a second sun
illuminating the area
glimmering off the lake
with it’s soft tides
gracing the sandy beaches
striking the stone piers
the gravel under my feet
scraping the bedrock underneath
i hear a loon call out
deep in the thick of the lake
echoing through the grounds
the sun will rise soon
but now the night dwindles
as i rise up to retire
the cold strikes my body
as i head down the path
to my single tent
as dawn breaks
i take it all in
i cherish it

is it easier to ignore the constant hum
that manifests itself deep inside your skull
immune to the distractions you face
nothing helps to drown it out

is it better still to pretend to be ill
like your stomach hasn’t had a hard enough time
filling it with lies will never subside the hunger
that eats away at your intestines

is it hard to swallow the truth
best to ignore the proof that lies in front of you
the notes and allegations that present themselves
maybe holding your breath will do

is it like the old times now
with the past being brought up so much
it feels like repetition is the key
that will guide you to complacency

know that i found them
a way to stop the hum
a cure for a fake sickness
an understanding of the truth
how to break out of complacency

it just takes a turn of heart

it’s the mountains you carry on your back
they crumble with every motion you make
they push down harder onto you
with every breath you exhale
every imprecise action
rendering a deafening response

to push it off and give up
would feel bittersweet immediately
but in the grand scheme of things
it would only result in failure
on anything you hold dear or close
for you to lose what you had already achieved

but those past actions led you here
to this weight you chose to carry
a natural progression for you
if anything you should be ready
to take on more and strive for greater
but it seems foolish and arrogant now

it’s true that the end is in sight
but the distance traveled tires all
your exhaustion is proof of your humanity
the obtuse ambition you live off of
can act as a gift or a curse in appearance
what you seek sometimes isn’t what is desired

just remember this when you take that load off
as the earth begins to rumble in victory
when the sweat from your hands drips down upon it
as you rise to full stature and admire your accomplishment
this is not the last mountain you shall carry
it is merely the one you previously held to the sky

the peaks in your life are made by you alone
carry on friend, there is much to be done
before the sun sets, and your final breath

keep it apart
i don’t want to let you go

forest fires
the smoke will catch up

not a cloud
has graced the sky for days

quarter rounds
to help pass the time at night

mistaken love
to haunt you in the waking hour

clearly free
lest the chance for opportunity

aspiring light
to always keep your soul warm

imaginary illness
in the surrounding towns

won’t ask you again
please just let me down

till the morning
i can’t be found