Author: ace mars lest july

are you here
in the quiet
dark corners
of this room

is your breath
visibly chilled
taking it in
silently still

yet i remain
unphased still
covered here until
you decide to return

every noise that echoes
inside of this house
is a clamouring statement
for you to come home

can you imagine me
waiting here patiently
wide eyed awake
come back to me

it’s hard to find
the words to apologize
for the actions i’ve come to regret

as months turn to year
i remember my fears
about things i couldn’t control

don’t listen to me
i’ve said the wrong things
i only speak when i’m upset

sleepless mornings
take the best out of me
but in time i can mend

just to hear you say
there is hope for me
don’t give up just yet

if i sit alone too long
let my thoughts eat away
what will be left of my day

but now every time
that you come up in my mind
i have trouble trying to accept

can you differentiate
the good from the bad
or is it equal to who i am

all the strung out fights
about how i was never right
still haunt me now and again

your face comes to me
in the most mysterious way
but fades as i lay awake

if i could see
what you really thought of me
i wonder if i’d get a good night’s rest

above me
dangling
in place
dependant on only one
created by a change
in temperature
in condition
molded to wires
waving in the wind
as the sun plays
hide and seek
soon this form
will begin
to melt
break up
fall
to the concrete
below me

the memories i want to keep
have been torn down
the memories i want to forget
haunt me relentlessly

the town i grew up in
reminds me of regret
the town i ran away to
fills me with anger
the town i was born in
i’ve returned for good

the friends afar
i keep close
the old friends
are forgotten

to remember now
would only help
me to forget
memories of before

made of the past
forged again
in the future
my being is anew