it’s hard to find
the words to apologize
for the actions i’ve come to regret
as months turn to year
i remember my fears
about things i couldn’t control
don’t listen to me
i’ve said the wrong things
i only speak when i’m upset
sleepless mornings
take the best out of me
but in time i can mend
just to hear you say
there is hope for me
don’t give up just yet
if i sit alone too long
let my thoughts eat away
what will be left of my day
but now every time
that you come up in my mind
i have trouble trying to accept
can you differentiate
the good from the bad
or is it equal to who i am
all the strung out fights
about how i was never right
still haunt me now and again
your face comes to me
in the most mysterious way
but fades as i lay awake
if i could see
what you really thought of me
i wonder if i’d get a good night’s rest