new tune

it’s the street names that set me off
the memories that are tied to them
if i headed in your direction
if i make the turn, i would break down
my heart would beat strongly
like the first time i met you
my stomach would turn and ache
i wouldn’t be able to stand beside you
anxiety would cut into my soul
so i head straight on
not letting the memories recollect
swirling in my mind
leaving your town
is the only thing that helps
the farther away i am
the calmer my soul becomes
my heart begins to beat again
to a new rhythm
in a new direction
at a new destination
to another

refuge

wishing got you in trouble
when you started to run
they caught up and put you in
under the radar

the fever dreams that followed
long nights of dread
put into perspective
to break instead

counting down the days
till recovery takes over
making sure perfection
cures all

mistakes are forever
the scars a memory
forgetting is hard
with constant reminders

west coast

i almost felt guilty
for judging you
when you skipped town
went out west
to forget your problems
cutting all ties
to your old life
making new friends
inheriting new places
to call your own
to erase the ones
you didn’t feel
belonged before

you ran away from family
said no goodbyes to old flames
left no trace of your existence
as the sun set
you left it all behind
through northern towns
the prairies
the rocky mountains
you came to the end
of the country
to redefine
who you are
what you want to be

i know you don’t think about me
when the wind skims your hair
the waves hit your feet
the rain kisses your face
and the moon shines above you
as you walk home at night
it’s probably for the better
to remain forgotten
in your past
for your clean future
to remain intact
as the town you left behind
moves on just the same
with you as a distant memory
far off, away

blue

i’m just sad
all the time
and your mad
cause all i do is rhyme

about the problems that we had
all the stupid stuff that wasn’t so bad

leaving everything to chance at hand
when i should have been loving you as planned

mistakes made
in the past
seem to fade
pretty fucking fast

so it’s time i take a stand
cause it’s time i took command

punching out the shadows
taking pictures that overexpose

but that’s just me
faults you can see
and that’s just you
my girl in blue