remnant

back from the dead
sending words to me
after severing links
to push me away
but it’s my heart
that beats faster
in anxiety
my mind goes
into a panic
like a reward
but it’s not
just a letdown
a time remnant
what’s left of
what once was
i wish it would stop
but i have no control
i need to erase you
but i’ve never been
cruel to you
i don’t want to start
even after everything
what you left me with
i can’t change now
it’s uncharacteristic
as time passes
i’m told it gets
a little easier
the timeline
is never given though
so i’ll wait longer
things have to turn up
it’s been like this
for far too long