Day: 17 June 2016

hearts ago

you never told me.
your mouth stayed shut.
not even a whisper of a plea.
the pain stayed in your gut.

you waited till now.
but it was three hearts ago.
you should have known how.
it was partly my fault though.

i was in my own little world.
it worked for me.
but as it furiously twirled,
it kept me free.

you were far away.
planet unknown.
to my dismay,
my heart was on post-pone.

i looked at you then.
saw what i wanted.
merely a friend.
somewhat unwanted.

it struck me down to see you now.
changed, misplaced, unhappy.
i keep on asking why and how.
but there’s no long play- its quick & snappy.

the real question is-you or me.
a blame on both sides.
who was really the one who was free.
is it still pain we feel inside?

now you are away.
not planets-so to say.
maybe that’s how it should stay.
with me not thinking about you everyday.

i’ll stay on my planet.
you can live on yours.
until our names are etched in granite,
or we run into each other behind closed doors-

remember the greatest feeling in the world and know it’s not ours.

in catherine. pt1

i met you by the used bookstore near your parents old house. it was early and the sun had yet to fully rise. giving off rays that were barley brighter then moonbeams. no one was around and the lot beside the store only had a broken down school bus. it had been there since the time I saw you last year. only now there were more broken windows and someone spray painted pink floyd lyrics along the side. 

you came by with a cigarette hanging from your lips and a small blue top on with denim shorts and your red converse. you spotted me and smirked as you pulled the cigarette out of your mouth and blew smoke making your lips pouty. smiling as you wave the smoke from the front of your face. 

“is this were we met last time?” as she looked around, “i thought we met by the pool along first and avalon?”

“no it was here, i can’t say that i’m surprised you don’t remember.”

she titled her head and smiled. she went forward to kiss me and i pulled back for a split second before she put her hand on my collar and pulled me in. I closed my eyes and tasted the cigarette in my mouth. and he warmth. and her hand against me. why am i here?