victoria

i was on the other side of the province

set to head home in the early morning

you were on the west coast

still drinking in the late evening

you called

i didn’t answer

straight to voicemail

twice

three times

i turned the music off

still heading down highway 7

i pressed play

fireworks in the distance

your laughter

follow by your voice

retelling the night

as i drive by the last gas station

for the next 100km

the kisses you shared

how i’d be jealous

i shook my head

as the message went dead

onto the next

which only had you cursing

which cut out

to the next message

of you saying you missed us

the fireworks continued

the message ended

i turned the music back on

sped up along the highway

as the began to rise

over the horizon

long aside

don’t be scared

i’ve heard that things grow

from the embers of the past

not knowing

how they’ll turn out

is half the battle

i shared

all these thoughts

before the night fell

giving up

when nothing helped

make sense of it

regretting actions

that played a part

in recovery

making excuses

to justify the end

in my hands

remembering now

is more self involved

then it was before

beside myself

i’ll get better

if it costs me

everything

in the morning

well you can tell by my eyes
that i don’t want the sun to rise
i want to stay here with you by my side

as soon as dawn breaks i’ll have to go
get dressed and pull my heart in tow
i wish that some days time would slow

if i knew i’d end up here with you
i would have called in with the flu
tell ’em my body is aching and my face is blue

the night went so quickly it took me by surprise
just being around you has taken me to new highs
now i’m fighting off the ever eager sunrise

i hope you understand that i’m being sincere
things haven’t been the best this year
but now you have me seeing you in revere

i know it’s not easy to accept the past
but i think what’s happening now will last
you’ve answered all the questions that i’ve asked

as i turn the key in the ignition something comes to mind
as i start to leave you behind
you might be the sweetest girl i ever find

nineteenth

it was strange from the start
always counting the beat of my heart
alongside the ticking clock
there was no reason to fear
kept my schedule clear
just to end up on your block

well as you opened the door
and i just started to implore
the wonder of it all
and as you gave me a tour
your beauty began to allure
like the art on your wall

as we walked to the bar
it still seemed bizarre
that this day was happening
we laughed as we drank
our minds never going blank
just our eyes examining

we headed back to your home
to the backyard with your gnomes
your choice of decoration
as we looked at the stars
discussed our old scars
over candlelight illumination

you commented on my hands
said their as smooth as sand
then asked me to kiss you
as the sparks shot inside
it got colder outside
my blood turned a lighter hue

we traveled to your room
all ready to consume
our built up desires
we put trust in our hands
didn’t make any plans
on putting out the fires

sun rose in the morning
without any warning
we stayed at each others side
who knew it would end like this
together with us in bliss
as our heart and souls collide

newfound

she’s gone to the states
with plans to celebrate
finally being happy

with friends at her side
like the turn of a tide
things are getting better

the year has been tough
getting her hands rough
trying to make it work

always too strong to ask
for help with a task
used to going it alone

a new city to reside
no need to ever hide
from the past

it seems like a dream
but it’s as real as can be
plan on sticking around

when she gets back
from playing blackjack
i’ll take her out on the town