bland mountain

wish you’d come closer
up next to me
talk off my ear
keep up the beat
we might start dancing
keep moving our feet
if the mood strikes us right
we could be together
for the rest of the night
oh the memory of you
stay in my conscience
don’t let it go
when the morning comes around
stay closer strongly
leave this shiny town
moments like this
that pass by too quick
hold on to your hand
until the sun rises
and you make the slip

wanted something to stand onto strongly
but broke right out under my feet
can’t find the fault in my footing
don’t want to be clouded in deceit

stood beside you for days
separated by night and obligations
tested by the strength of our love
setup for an abrupt end

figured i could pick myself up again
retrace the steps in my mind
looked up to the pedestal we reached
to find the cracks that let me down

the acts i would commit to relay to you
thoughts of endless questioning
actions made me feel invisible instead
cut out of the picture of me in your head

hit the ground running fast
rolling around to try to mend
misled affection from suitors
only help clarify my mind

still in the wreckage
sifting through the mess
lift me out now and free me
give out the truth and don’t defend

look back at what was
you ran beside me
striving for more with me
before our untimely end

was it easier to forget
long before it was easy to remember
to look over what was said
just dwelling on past regrets

did the timeline ever shrink
to move on, get over
expanding with the future
continuing to transpire

to remove it from existence
feels like a lobotomy
never wanting to lose
what never was or should be

with photographs
still memories attached
all of love transcribed
to kill it now –
as if it never was

plugging away during the day
getting lost at odd hours through the night
making motions to put on display
to try and fend off my fright
the terrors lying underneath my skin
the anger drumming against my brain
a kind that puts me into a spin
that latches on, keeps me in pain
don’t you see it eating away
what’s left of me in agony
the cause of it, is hard to say
stopping me from being so care free
if i could cast away my thoughts
let go of the ones i fought off
just give me a few good shots
nothing to really look at and scoff

because ive
got it figured out now
the last remnants 
of the ill fated desires
you’ll believe it when you see it
never could have guessed it would be true
the point you were making comes through
the ferocious temperament of ambition
covered in gold and forgivness
melted compassions flowing away
like lava from my core
hot to the touch
but sure enough
to cure

to endure the trials of your love
before and after, evermore