bland mountain

come closer darling
i know what you think
this blood on my hands
won't wash off in the sink

it's the memories dear
that stay in my mind to fright
keeping me screaming
in the bitter late night

but don't worry love
i've got it all figured out
a way to fix everything
no need to doubt

that the best course of action
is put into motion
i'll get rid of everything
throw it in the ocean

to let this ruin us
all that we had
why that's just silly
somewhat just sad

so pick up your hands
cover them too
it will wash off
so fresh it's still blue

to remedy screams
well it's more then it seems
take one of these
harsh fragile dreams

for when we awake
with hands all clean and dry
it'll be easy to forget
you'll just question why

so don't run away now
don't begin to look back
join me now
let's stay on track

cause if you leave now
the only thing i couldn't stand
is to have your beautiful blood
all over my hands

my eyes stung
from the sweat
beading down my face

in the humid summer
as i jogged down
to your house

overcast skies
didn't stop
the sun's rays

my skin burned
dried out
to peel later

your shadeless lawn
with dead grass
and broken sprinkler

busted doorbell
ripped screen door
so i knocked on the mailbox

your tabby cat
motionless and spread out
meowed from the balcony

you came up
with a floral t-shirt
and jean shorts

hair tied back
no makeup
red popsicle

you're the only one
to be cute and cool
on the hottest day

we'd wait
for sunset
the breezy night

rush out
downtown
drink up

to late mornings
afternoon wakes
to repeat

i walk back
to an empty house
and rejuvenate

if the season ends
you disappear
i'll stick around

autumn brings
fleeting love
back in town

i don't know your origins
but i figure
you came down
from the heavens
in a rainstorm
as thunder shook the earth

you seem to float slightly
above the ground
never letting
the dirt touch
the bottom
of your toes

as the wind tries to caress you
blowing out
its tiring lungs
you simply push away
its advances
to continue on your way

protect you from the rays
of the sun
as it tries to take
you back
away from me
as the clouds separate

please
just remember me
please
try to release
please
don't evaporate away

girl from the rainy day

what goes through my mind
when i go out
with the sunset
as the beams
from the moon
shine behind clouds

mostly,

i think about my failures
my mistakes
incorrect actions
lost loves
fragile relations
prospects of growth

out of my control
yet still lingering
repeating themselves
as i kick the earth
filling me with despair
blocking my future

it doesn't slow me down
i keep my pace
even as i burn
my legs begin to swell
chest tightens
lungs struggling

i look up
ahead of me
to more curves
of the suburbia
minor lights emitting
from closed homes

do they see it
the anguish
in my face
as i rush by
their dimly lit windows
and doorways

i doubt it
they have their failures
on their minds
over poor actions
or lost loves
and damaged relations

i suppose it's futile
to focus on the past
and let it ruin your future
but it motivates me
it keeps me going
onward nightly

but as the moon reveals
its true body
i wonder
as the sun sets
does it contemplate
why it should emerge
to overtake the night

does it look out
to see lost souls
it wishes to assist
so that by morning
we can all just try to forget
why it was we struggled
with the past regrets

picked you up at dawn
the sun came over the horizon
you let out a yawn
with a smile to enlighten
we packed up your bags
squeezed into my car
oh how the morning drags
when you can still see stars
coffee shop orders
tank filled up to the brim
crossing provincial borders
directions on a whim
we pass landmarks
one by one
amusement parks
hit-and-runs
you rolled down the windows
so the wind can caress you hair
you adjust your pillow
i find it hard not to stare
pit stops to refuel
grab a bite to eat
you say something unusual
i try to be discrete
back on the road
the summer sun shines
the traffic slowed
so we waited on the sidelines
you took photographs
of people and their children
to see their laughs
you kept your smile hidden
as it broke off
we returned to the road
you just scoffed
thought of your abode
how you would never miss it
the people there you never chose
you sounded like a hypocrite
for reasons you didn’t want to expose
when we reached our destination
the cool breeze comes off the lake
everything gets lost in translation
our words come off as a mistake
for when the fire starts tonight
you’ll come close to me
guided by starlight
hundred year old trees
as the embers fade out
we keep burning
old flames find new routes
constantly yearning
i don’t want to leave
without you standing by my side
but i’m just as naive
as the moonlight on the tide